I'm realizing the NYC / Tri-State area and I don't get along well. My life has gone from organized, goal oriented and driven to seemingly mush and brain lint since moving to Connecticut.
Somehow, over the past two years, I have lost my creativity. My sparkle. My vibe. My mojo. Everyone has a different name for it, but mine has been crushed and tossed away and need to get it back. Sure there has been culture shock all over again since moving here from Dallas. The rat-race pace of life feels like it has run me over. The past winter with over 100 inches of snow has done me in. Perhaps my Pisces self is too overwhelmed by the Northeast to maintain my Zen? I can't keep up and know I don't want to live like this anymore. This isn't living to me, it's existing. Big difference.
I used to have so many ideas flowing through my head, I carried a notebook and wrote everything down and made notes in my BlackBerry constantly. I always had four or five blog posts brewing in my head, photo ideas for my tumbler blog jumping around along with massage and yoga to keep me grounded enough to do it all. I had TIME for my life. Now I just feel numb, like I'm on the hamster wheel running all the time just to keep up.
There isn't anything fresh or new to act as a catalyst for sparking new ideas. I am just working continuously at a job I don't love to make ends meet and am so mentally and physically exhausted, there is no room in my head for creativity or fun. Any suggestions for a temporary fix until the fall when the lease is up and I am moving away?
I'm not sad or have regrets about trying a life in Connecticut, but its time to call it quits and move on, and move on happily.
What do you do to find your creativity? Your zest for life?
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I don't know, Vanessa, I've gradually lost my spark over time. The job took a lot out of me, even though it was just part time. Now that I'm laid off, I hope to rediscover some of the things I used to do.
I think you just keep at it.
I wish I had four or five blog ideas ahead. I need to remember to make notes of things when I do think of them though.
I know for me, your constant support and comments on my blog help me keep going. :)
When it comes to recapturing the creative spark (and like you, I've lost mine from time to time), sometimes what I have to do is let myself lie fallow for a little while.
Then, maybe take a new class. Do something different. Get out of my head.
And when the time is right, my batteries are suddenly recharged, and I can't even stop myself, it's back to full-speed ahead.
Other things that sometimes help in the creative battery recharging department: taking a trip. Visiting old friends. Making new friends. Trying a new restaurant or a new recipe. These things all help me, from time to time.
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